Aug 18, 2009

5.40 pm

I was going to change the title of the blog but when I opened blogspot I realized I forgot what I was going to write. Yeah, FUCK... my memory has been failing me lately. I need a new one.

It's been raining since saturday night. It stopped yesterday but it started again last night. And this morning when I woke up I felt like I was about to die, and therefore didn't go to school. Yes, I SKIPPED CLASS TODAY even though I had a math test. Fuck the math test. My stomach was killing me this morning. Now it's not that bad.

I've been drawing a lot lately. Mostly simple dresses, but I still have to put some color and details. For that I need time, and I lack of it. Last year I had a lot of it in my hands, now it just slips away. I only wish the next four years happen that fast, if things will continue as they are.

Have you ever considered that your whole life you've been doing nothing but pleasing everyone else? Saying yes to this and that and smiling. Without a comeback, without stopping to think: why. I have, and I hate it.

Good bye.

1 comment:

Amandasaurus said...

I have too and I'm trying to break the habit. I do what I can for others and I consider people that are important to me when I make decisions, but ultimately I have to do some things lest I turn 40 and realize that I wasted my entire youth.

But you ARE doing things for yourself if you're continuing to draw and take pictures. When you're a student, and I know this well, that's the best you can do. You'll be glad to have the diploma and the degree when all is said and done.